Monday, January 31, 2011


It was such a beautiful weekend! And such a relaxing one too! Friday night I had dinner with my uncle at PF Changs, yummy yummy!
I then watched a movie with the fam at my moms....can't remember what it was though lol. I skyped Alex all night, then fell asleep while skyping, then woke up to my amazing man telling me good morning!!!
I had a hair appointment at 11:30am Saturday morning, where my grandmother took me to a salon (this was a late Christmas present) and Stephan did my hair!! Looks great! I think so at least. I was skeptical about bangs, but I took a leap and went with it.
After my hair cut I picked up a quick gift for Savannah, Alex's little sister, it was her first birthday party!!! I stayed out at Alex's parents Saturday night, we just hung out and watched movies. Then Sunday morning I woke up at 6am to go fishing with Martin, Alex's dad, caught 9 fish! One 4 pounder! It was incredibly relaxing.
Cheryl, Alex's step mom, seriously helped me plan like the whole wedding. She took so much of the stress away from me. I don't know what I would have done without her help.

So needless to say, I'm in a super duper mood, I am no longer stressed the eff out! And I feel great!!!

I hope everyone else has a wonderful Monday!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Monday, January 24, 2011

When life hands you lemons,

you have options!
You could make lemonade, but personally I'm not a huge fan.
You could pair it up with some tequila, salt, and lime, but I've had some horrible experiences with tequila.
Or, my personal favorite, you could use those lemons as weapons and throw them at people. Specifically people that annoy you :)

I had an interesting weekend, it was somewhat relaxing, somewhat stressful, and very emotional. "Aunt Flo" doesn't make a habit of visiting often with my birth control, but I could swear that I was about to start this weekend! I don't know if it's just stress, or a crazy hormonal breakdown, but SOMETHING has got to change here. I can't even function lately. I suppose it could be partially because of communication between Alex and I being cut down alot, he's on this "get fit" kick and is actually sticking to it, which is more than I can say for myself, but it's cutting into our talk time, ALOT....or at least it seems like alot. I also feel overwhelmed at home, like literally there are moments when I want to kill Athena! She has been driving me nuts lately, and as adorable as she is I still just wanna flick her in the nose sometimes. June, I love her, and she's a sweetheart, but she will NOT stay out from under my feet! Rylan has been an emotional wreck lately too, he's so grumpy lately, and not sleeping as much as usual, and crying all the time! Laundry is backed up, surprise, surprise! <----I HATE laundry!

Alex suggested I go out to his parent's house this weekend. I love his parents! Rylan will be with his father this weekend, so it will give me an opportunity to truly relax, away from the city, have a few drinks with Alex's dad and maybe watch movies. And oh my gosh they cook, and they cook amazingly! More than anything I just think it'd be nice to get away, get away from my family and friends, and just relax. Being with them makes me feel closer to Alex. Not that I don't love my family and friends....I just need to get away, I feel like I'm losing it!

I feel like this post is going no where, and just a random jumble of thoughts and feelings, so I will leave it at that, and continue my glorious Monday at work (*sarcasm*)

Thursday, January 20, 2011

"All My Loving"

-Jim Sturgess version

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you,
Tomorrow I'll miss you;
Remember I'll always be true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you.
I'll pretend that I'm kissing
The lips I am missing
And hope that my dreams will come true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you.
All my loving I will send to you.
All my loving, darling I'll be true.

"Hey Jude"

-Joe Anderson version

Hey Jude don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
Hey Jude don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better
And any time you feel the pain, Hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder
Na na na na na
na na na na
Hey Jude don't let me down
You have found her now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
So let it out and let it in
Hey Jude begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you
Hey Jude you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder
Na na na na na
na na na na Yeah
Hey Jude don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her under your skin
Then you'll begin to make it better
Better, better, better, better, better, Oh
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na, Hey Jude
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na, Hey Jude
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na, Hey Jude

Across the Universe

Lately I've been on an Across the Universe soundtrack kick, I loved the movie when I saw it last summer. My sister left her ipod with me because she knows her nephew loves it, so I have taken it over and she just happens to have the soundtrack on there. So it's been "Hey Jude" and "All My Loving" for 3 days now :)

So last night I went wedding dress browsing and ended up spending 2 hours in the store with Jackie trying them on. I found one I really like, but my indecisiveness is keeping me from saying "it's the one" so I will continue to shop around until I get that "this is it" feeling I guess lol. In two weeks I have an appointment to go look at a venue. I've narrowed it down to three, I think lol. Jackie is going with me, so hopefully I'll get some feedback.

After wedding dress shopping last night Jackie and I went to On The Border! I think I finally found a drink that Jackie will actually DRINK.....strawberry daiquiri's haha! I had a pina colada with my appetizer and then a nice cold beer with my nachos. <---- Thats right, I had nachos, and NO they're not on my diet. But damn it I hate diets, and I think I deserve to cheat every now and then. I've been doing good-ish. It'd probably be better if I actually went to the gym like I initially planned to, but my energy level lately has been zilch and that decreases my motivation greatly.

I'm pretty sure I accidentally potty trained Athena already. Now this is a great thing, but I didn't really do anything. She's a smart little thing, that makes things easier on me!

Mmk, I'm done for now.....I gotta get to work.

Friday, January 14, 2011



I despise being sick, in fact all I want to do is lay in bed allllll day and sleep. But even my sickly-ness doesn't keep the reality of life away, I still have to go to work, and I still have to be a mommy. I am at work, sickly, feeling beyond horrible. Coughing, sneezing, and I have the sniffles :(
I know I could go home sick....but I don't have sick days and can't afford to take off since my car incident last week and my step mom being sick, I missed two days last week. Since my step mom keeps Rylan, he can't really go over there if she's sick, I certainly didn't want him to get sick. That didn't do any good though, he has the same thing I have too :(

So us two sickly peeps will be spending the weekend peacefully at home. Tonight I will for a short time be babysitting my little brother, who is 6 years old, luckily he keeps himself entertained without much help. Tomorrow my lovely friend Jackie will come over and stay with me, there will be movies, junk food, facials, and toe nail polish :) possibly some hair coloring too. It will be a nice relaxing at-home-spa night!

So after attempting to plan what exactly will happen when Alex comes home I have come to find out that I will be planning a wedding, mostly by myself, for when he gets home. Actually a little after, but still. That's right, I'M GETTING MARRIED! Very stoked! Kinda nervous, but I have plenty of time to plan and get all the details in order. It will be a somewhat small affair, with family and close friends only. Anyways, gives me something else entertaining to write about I suppose, wedding planning is chaotic enough :)

Thursday, January 13, 2011


Athena got her first bath last night, and needless to say I think it was a traumatic experience for her. However, she LOVED getting dried off :) she just sat there and let me rub her down with a towel. She's all fluffy and clean now!
Please ignore me in the pic, I have no make-up on and was soaking wet from Athena trying to escape the bathtub.

Little late but....

here are Rylan's snow day pictures :)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Meet Athena...

I picked up our new fur-baby last night. She was one of two babies left, and she had the most personality of the two. Her mother was very concerned, I felt kinda bad, she'd watched 8 other babies leave and had 2 left, and she knew I was taking one. Daddy dog was HUGE, and Athena looks just like him. She will be 2 months old on the 19th of this month. She's pretty smart, and very playful. She didn't have any accidents in the house overnight, in fact she slept with me all night, didn't even move. I tried to get her to sleep in her kennel, but that was NOT happening! Today I put her in the kitchen and blocked the entry with her kennel with the door open so she can go in and out of it comfortably, but have room to roam the kitchen also. Her and June are slowly getting used to each other. June, at first, was scared of Athena, because she kept barking at her. June isn't a fan of loud noises. Well, this is just the beginning of my adventure with Athena's puppyhood, I'm sure I'll have some interesting stories.

On another note, I'm just about done with this teen-20's weather we're having. We're TEXAS for crying out loud, where did our 60-70 degree winters go? What is this snow and ice we're getting. Please go away and bring me my warm sunny weather back, please please please!

Rylan has a cold. I suppose it started Friday with a LOW grade fever of a whopping 99.6 lol, his doctor wouldn't even consider that a fever, but he felt so hot and I could tell he wasn't feeling well. So I dosed him up on his tylenol and a decongestant. His fever went away completely and hasn't come back, he seemed fine until yesterday, now he has a cough, and it sounds bad :( my poor baby. Making a call to Dr. Moses today to see what he recommends, we may be making a trip to see him early this month.

I'm exhausted, and need to get back to work. I wish  you all a wonderful day!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Oh crap

My darling significant other has convinced me to add another fur-baby to our family. He is so excited, and honestly so am I. However, I'm also terrified! Potty training another dog is going to kill me! But who could turn down one of these faces???
So, we're getting a girl, and naming her Athena (goddess of war...go figure) lol

Wish me luck!

I have this friend....

she's actually my best friend and has been since we were 11 years old. She's married with two children. She is in an abusive relationship, and I want her out. When I first met her husband, "B", he seemed like a gentleman, and a loving companion and father. Since then my opinion of him has changed greatly. I actually despise the man. I've gone to pick up my friend, "M", and the children on multiple occassions after he has hit, thrown, or pushed her. I have literally seen her covered in bruises. But she won't call the cops, why? HELL IF I KNOW! She is terrified of him, he told her if she ever tried to leave him that he would come after her, and if he couldn't find her he'd go after her family. I understand how terrifying that it, I've been in a situation where I was told if I ever spoke a word my mom would get hurt. I've told her a million times that her and the kids could come stay with me, I could get her a job through a friend of mine, and help her with the kids. She has yet to take the offer, and says she feels like she would be a burden to me. She has slipped so far into depression that she doesn't do anything, the house is messy, the dishes and clothes unwashed, the kids have no structure or dicipline at all whatsoever. He talks down to her and makes her feel worthless, blames his dads death on her (he had a heart condition), tells her what a horrible wife and mother she is, and basically makes her his sex slave. Recently after a night out with M, B called me and asked if we had talked about their sex life, which we don't do, lol I don't care about their sex life. He the proceeded to tell me that he is only 23, not 40, and should be able to get "good" sex from his wife when he wants it, and if she can't give that to him then he's going to cheat on her with some girl he works with who is "down to f**k" <--Classy Lady huh?
I told M about this conversation and again tried to persuade her to come live with me. She refused, but said she is done and wants out, she plans to find a job and secretely stash money away so that when she has enough she can leave. So she's just going to endure the hell until then??? That could take forever! She hasn't worked in 3 years!
I just don't know what to do anymore, the man is nuts, and has probably banned her from ever speaking to me again, I kinda told him EXACTLY what I thought of him last night on the phone.

Crap :(